Smile empty soul

It's that time of the year again, heck I get reminded to it everytime I go to work for the past few months. Christmas tunes and all kinds of decorations that fit this period just perfectly; ranging from obvious Christmas tree, candles, lights to the less obvious straw pointy shoes and decoratives for adorning Christmas (pre-made) pieces. The consumerism comes at you in ways that makes you vomit if you stay in it long enough to capture you. There is too much, too many of everything and they're all trying to get on the best side of the deep-end of your pocket.

What's in store for me? I suppose I'll just wrap up the last week of school just fine and act my way through this period like I did many years before. Although I can't seem to escape that feeling of awkwardness. This period has a certain dull edge to it, where the cold weather happens to play a huge part of it. They usually say Christmas time is the period where most people commit suicide, because this is the period where the loneliness cuts deepest. Now it's not that I'm a lonely guy, but I can relate to that feeling of discomfort where everything seems to be so disconnected. Perhaps it's the almost obsessive crusade for comfort and happiness as it is reflected in the things we buy and the plans we make with friends & family. I reckon it's also the period where idealistic people want to remind us of the real reason behind Christmas and that it's not merely the end of the amazing shopping months. Referring us to biblical stories written which in turn get abused to make peace, discrimination, racism and everything else that's bad in the world a heavy weight topic once more. You could almost set your clock to the events that unfold in chronological order every year again. And I for one can't really decide what's more discouraging: the consumarism, the loneliness or the idealistic side of Christmas.

For the others among us, we can't really change anything other then to hope it passes like it does every year. Get back to the normal life we were leading before we entered this haze that's stronger than any drug available. I just wish this period would bring us more in high spirits as it always promises us, alas that only happens at the exact time it stops one year full.